Monday, September 28, 2009
And here is our precious little one month old. She's officially over a month old and doing pretty good. We think she's close to 10 lbs now and just keeps growing. She's getting close to outgrowing her new born clothes but 0-3 month is a little big. For the most part she is sleeping pretty good at night. Although I did boot her to the crib in her bedroom that is upstairs because she was making so much noise at night time that she was keeping me awake. The funniest noise was when Phil thought he heard a sheep the other night, sure enough Harlie was baaaing like a sheep, but she also neighs as well (neh, eh, eh, eh). She also grunts and wiggles which also causes noise. She holds her head up really good and squirms and kicks a lot. Today she slept most of the day so I think she's going through a growth spurt. On a not so fun note, she seems to have a rash on her face that comes and goes but it doesn't seem to bother her. We think it's a heat rash but are not sure.. I'm hoping to remember to call the doctor tomorrow. We also think she got a fungus on her butt (which could be from me having to take an antibiotic when she was born) because she had a case of diaper rash that wouldn't go away. Unfortunately, it takes a week for it to heal and then two more weeks of treatment before it's completely taken care of. Oh and one last not so cute thing, she's going bald on top, as you can kind of see in the picture. She's loosing her hair on top but has it all on the back and sides.. just like an old man.
I would say we are settling into our new life pretty good. Wendell, Harlie and I have been getting out a lot so that makes our day go better. We did stay home today and didn't play outside much since it was so windy and Wendell did really good. He helped me vacuum, do dishes, and cook supper. We all got to take a nap today (at the same time) so that was really nice. And I let Wendell watch a movie. So a fun day at home for us.. a rare treat for me.
That's all for now. And if any of you know Sarah, then you know she runs a lot faster than I do so it really should say "watch out Heather" cause you're getting lapped again : )
Thursday, September 24, 2009
- If I wouldn't say it to someone else then I shouldn't say it to myself.
- I can either control my thoughts or they can control me.
One of the "assignments" is to go through the week and note some of my reoccurring thoughts; then ask if it's encouraging? discouraging? neutral? God driven? Satan driven? constructive? destructive?
I can already give you an example of one reoccurring thought I have and that is before I pray I often give myself a guilt trip that I should either be praying more often or just "talking to God" more often (especially when struggling as a mom or wife) and then most of my prayer is negative and I get the guilties. Today when I prayed, I made myself ignore that thought and made myself focus on who/what I wanted to pray for (yeah, the whole point of my prayer). I must say, it was much more enjoyable and I felt more connected to God as my friend than always feeling guilty/not good enough. So, here is an example of where I chose to control my thoughts and it was a much more positive outcome.
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
our daughter has become a fussy pants.. we are on day 3 of fussiness and everyday something different seems to be the solution. but we/i don't figure it out until after i have a headache or am exhausted.
today, she got swaddled and it seemed to be the trick so at least she's sleeping for now.
on a good note she slept from 9:30pm to 6am last night. yeah, sounds great but i woke up at 4am and couldn't get back to sleep right away even though harlie was sleeping (that's the time she would normally request my attention). then i woke up again at 5:30 leaking so i thought i better pump before i burst a milk gland. then she woke up at 6am requesting some breakfast and a diaper change.
phil, the super husband, let me sleep in until 8am so i must admit, i feel rested. however, i was planning to work out this morning and didn't get the energy to get out of bed in time.
Monday, September 14, 2009
Friday, September 11, 2009
Wendell and I've had days like this before so I know we'll be fine. It seems odd that taking care of Harlie seems so easy.. it's the 2 year old that can drive me mad! When does this stage end? It's starting to feel like NEVER... I'm hoping it's easier with Harlie.. maybe her and Wendell will play together and keep each other company? Or am I looking at double trouble in 2 years?
Really, when all is said and done, I'm just disappointed in myself. Every once in awhile, it all builds ups, I get so angry and then every little thing just makes it worse. How can I let go of the anger and "reset" myself so that it doesn't just build and build? Hmm... any advice for me?
Well, thankfully, time doesn't stop and yesterday did end. Today has been a little better but I can tell I'm still frustrated with the little guy. At least the weekend is here so hopefully we'll be busy enough to stay out of trouble.
One last thought. Looking at today's date, I realize I have no right to complain, it could be worse - much, much worse.
Saturday, September 5, 2009
There are a lot of things that I'd like to get done before Wendell comes back. One thing is that I have been trying to journal Harlie's "birth story" and there is so much to write that I just need to get it done before I forget. I also have a baby book that I really want to get a good start on so I don't forget those little details either. And we have some gifts/decorations that need to be hung, pictures need to be ordered/picked up/organized, and get the house cleaned up. I'm sure there are many other things that I'm not even thinking of.
Just as a general update, we are all doing pretty good. Harlie sleeps pretty good for the most part waking every 3-4 hours but then goes back to sleep after I feed her. Overall, she's a pretty happy baby and doesn't cry that much except if she's hungry. I still can't tell who I think she looks like so I'm just going to say Harlie for now. Eventually I'll find my photo album that has Phil, Wendell and my baby pictures so we can compare them. Wendell continues to do pretty good with her, although he hasn't really been around her but for a few days. Physically, I am feeling much better than I did a week ago and am on the mend. I also think I'm starting to adjust to lack of sleep but next week will be the true test when Phil goes back to work and Wendell is here; if Harlie continue to wake up at 6am. Part of me wants to get back into a routine which includes exercise, play dates, eating healthy/cooking, and more structured life in general and part of me laughs at the thought of this and says that I should just wait a month before attempting to get my life back to a new "normal".
On a side note, I'm happy to report that I am "meeting" my nursing goal of being able to breastfeed Harlie in front of other people especially men. I've had the challenge thrown at me 4 times and 3 of the 4 times I did nurse (covered) in front of a man and the 4th time I had pumped and Phil gave her a bottle (which I'm perfectly happy with as well). I have also nursed in front of a couple of female friends without the cover and this I did not even do when Wendell was a baby. I am not completely comfortable with nursing in front of people as I have not mastered the nursing covers/cape/shawls (I have 3) but so far I'm pleased with what I've accomplished. I can tell I'm becoming one of those "freedom" breastfeeding women as I want to be able to do normal things and not feel like I have to hide when I feed Harlie but at the same time, I don't want to just whip it all out and be totally exposed. I'm sure I will find a good balance that makes me and others comfortable.
This next week, we have some outings planned during the day so it'll be interesting to see how I do with a toddler and nursing infant. Harlie has her 2 week appointment, I'm hoping to get a play date in with my friend Sarah, and am hoping to also do some traveling to see parents and my mom. So, at some point next week, I'll have to give you an update of life with Phil at work and me being a lone mom of two.
Well, enough rambling for now... here are some fun pictures.